Phelps highlighted the pressures he felt from a young age, and how these compounded into suicidal thoughts. "I was always hungry, hungry, and I wanted more," Phelps said, according to CNN. "I wanted to push myself really to see what my max was.” The Olympian outlines how he felt so much pressure that he “didn't want to be in the sport anymore ... I didn't want to be alive anymore.”
Although deservingly decorated as a sporting hero for his efforts in the pool, Phelps has experienced public battles with substance abuse in the past. DUI’s and documented recreational drug use culminated in the 2012 realisation that he needed to seek help. Since the London Games, Phelps has sought to turn his life around through ongoing treatment, raising a young family, and working with US charities to break down stigma attached to mental health discussion.
"It's okay to not be okay," he said. "[Mental health] has a stigma around it and that's something we still deal with every day. That's the reason why suicide rates are going up—people are afraid to talk and open up," he said.
Phelps has been a long time supporter of fellow swimmers suffering mental health issues. Early last year, Phelps opened his Arizona home to Australian swimmer Grant Hackett following his own struggles and subsequent arrest.
“Grant and I have been good friends since 2001 and my heart hurt when he went through those things,” Phelps told The Sunday Telegraph at the time. “We have both been through similar things, but different things. We can obviously share different perspectives of different sides of the things we dealt with.”
Australia’s greatest Olympian, swimmer Ian Thorpe, has also expressed his battle with depression. “"From the outside, many would not see my pain nor be able to relate to the sometimes-daily struggle I was facing,” detailed Thorpe in a blog post for the Huffington Post.
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